I think i don't deserve love

 
“Love is not love until love’s vulnerable”

    Well, the name might have triggered some thoughts and of course, the time is such that your brain will highlight the thought even more. Let me tell you something, love is not something to be deserved; it is something to be felt. And trust me on this one, it does not come from romantic relationships only but from various ways. It is when your friend listens to your rant about the same crush over and over again, it is when your mom quitely cooks your favourite food on days you feel low, it's on the day when dad gets you your favourite chocolate from the market, its when your sibling sits with you and eats the most unhealthy thing because you needed company. I mean, these are different forms of love, which you do know exists for you and comes to you often, but again; what about romantic love?


    Well, it might have happened and you got the best of partners and eventually it turned into something unhealthy and left a scar. Or it might be happening right now and making you think the worst of scenarios because of past experiences. Or it is waiting somewhere down the road for you, waiting for you to reach it soon and give it a chance. And you know what, it will take it’s time. You will be loved and you will be getting every aspect of it. It may not happen in the exact way you think but in ways where you may feel at peace. 


    As always, I would still suggest, love yourself and accept yourself as you are while working to be better and give yourself the love you wish to feel and when love will come to you, you will accept it with open arms with no unhealthy patterns but rather feel like you have reached home. 





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